Yes! i dream of you today.

Dad, you finally come to my dream, but i didn't ask you anything..

The only thing you told me is i wanna eat anything or not and you ask me eat Maggie mee and you told me you will cook for me..

Weird, you will never cook Maggie mee for me to eat, since when you learn it?

But at least i had dream of you, can you come to my dream more often?

I got so many things to tell you..

Dad, i really miss you...

Please come to my dream again!!

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Will I see you?

Dad, i always ask myself this question,

Will i get to see you when i go to heaven, will you come and pick me when my time is up?

I had been thinking, will you?

I wanted to go with you, to your house in heaven and stay with you when my time is up.. I want you to bring me around the world..

I know the time is not up but we will hae to go through this so when my time up please come and pick me i don't want others to come and pick me...

I know i'm very silly to say this now but no matter what we had to know this day will come, we must be prepare..

So now i just wanna to say if my time is up, remember to come and pick me up!

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

P/S:  I"m just saying IF one day i'm no longer around!! I STILL ALIVE! :))

Two year without you

Its been two year plus without you at home.

I start to think of you were overseas working and very busy.

I know that you will not come back anymore.

But i stil hope that you will come to my dream.

I wonder where you have been this two year, how are you?

Have you seen grandma & grandpa?

Are you enjoying yourself in heaven??

I hope you are find

If can please let me dream of you..

I miss you.

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

Celebration without you.

Dad, remember last time you love to buy lantern for me to play?

Well not all time, but when you are free you will bring me out to see the light decoration at Chinatown.

You will go buy your favorite moon cake and on lunar 8/15 you will eat the moon cake and drink a cup of tea..

I really miss the time you bring us out to orchard road to see the light decoration on CNY, Christmas and moon cake festival..

I really miss the place you bring me go before , you will drive and i don;t take mrt or bus go save my trip money, but when you are no longer around i had not been to those place for long time to see the light decoration..

I will remember all the place you brought me go before..

I will not forget...

I promoise..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

I remember..

Dad, i remember something which i really don't know if it really happen to me..

I remember that time you just pass away, and i was holding on to your phone in order to contact your friend so i call one by one and inform then..

I can't remember when is it, morning 7am i wanted to call one of your friend but i call her at 7 plus but at night when she come she asked me if i had call her earlier on or not i say not its just 5 mins before i call her and she already received a call from your phone.

She told me that no one was talking and she keep calling your name to ask was that you...But she told me no one reply, she wasn't aware that you are no longer around so when i told her at the next call then she found out you already pass away.. so that night when she came she show me her phone and it show that her phone rang before i call her, she told me maybe you were looking for her and want to talk to her as you will call her and ask how is or is she busy when you are free...

Few days later, i was sleeping in my room alone then i remember i kick my pillow on the floor and i never pick it up i was to scare so i cover myself up with the blanket. In morning i heard mum voice in my room then i open up my eyes and i saw the pillow was on my bed and my blanket was no longer the want i use at night.

The blanket i use at night was blue, i did have one pink blanket on my bed i never use it i just put it aside, so when i was awake, the moment i ask my mum was, is that pillow on the floor when you were in? she replied no. then i say ok never mind. again i saw my blanket from blue become pink more shocking...

I was wondering i change the blanket myself? But i didn't move at all i don't even wake up to go washroom or what how can i change my blanket i don't sleepwalk as well..

So i told my mum about it and my aunt then i got the answer is, dad, you are the one who pick up my pillow and you are the want who change my blanket..

I wasn't scare at the moment i was shock and i really don't know you help me change my blanket..

I know you are home to visit us that day.. Dad, thank you...

I miss you alot..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Thing that remind me of you.

Dad, every time i saw the things that belong to you i will start thinking of you..

Even when i went out i saw someone back ground i also thought is you as the person had a similar back ground as you..

When i went to the room that you use to sleep i had be thinking that if you are around you will still sleeping in the room and i still can see you everyday.. But now i only see a empty room and some of your belonging

Mum, told me that we have to keep some of your belonging because next year when your third year anniversary we have to burn all your belonging to you, i hope you will received it..

And i remember when you pass away, they call us to keep the shirt you wore when you are around so we do keep the shirts that you wear..

I really miss the time you brought me out and you love to wake me up to eat the food you brought at night and morning..

Sorry dad, cause sometime i will give you cold shoulder as i don't want to eat anything at night as i wanna sleep due to i'm tired.. But sometime i will still wake up to eat..

You love to call home to ask me if i wanna eat anything and i will use to say yes and sometime no.. hahas. I love the food you brought for me and i will always remember..

Dad, i hope that you are find in heaven..

I will still remember how you look and how you sound like. Although i will be forgetting it soon..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

There will not be any thing from you anymore

Yes, i will get nothing from you anymore.

I face the fact you are no longer alive and giving things i want anymore..

Dad, i want to thank you for giving me all things i had when i was young and i know that i'm a spoild kid who want this and that..

I know you had been giving me things in the limite you can and i always want more of it without using my brain to think its cheap or expensive..

There will not be any thing from you anymore, these two year i'm really find and i had keep those things you give me before so that means alot to me already!

Thank you dad,

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Good temper?

Hahas. dad, i don't think i have good temper right?

Have i treat people good? Well , yes to those who i just meet them to those kids.

I can treat people good and bad, depends on the way they want me to do it, sometime i feel that i'm so fake to treat those who i dislike good.

My good temper is missing sometime and my bad temper is always there, if i don't get enough sleep i will have bad temper and good temper? you want to know?

It could only be found when i'm in good mood.. If not just a small mistake it will make me super angry..

Dad, this is me.. I'm changing so hope i can change to a new girl who has good temper..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Bad Temper

Dad, you know i got bad temper, I will show a black face to someone who i don't like or when i didn't get the things i wanted...

I feel very tired every time i got angry for something which i can just forget it, I hate those people who love to gossip behind me.

Why can't they say it in front of my face and you know if they did i will just say them back by scolding, I will just scold them without respect them..

I hate those bad temper, i want to change but its like when i want to change something will happen to make me dame angry, how to change you teach me can?

I know some people love to gossip behind and when i know they saying me i will be super angry and i feel like scolding them as soon as possible without waiting..  *you know who they are who love to gossip alot*

Dad, i learn something which i think is useful, although they give me bad comment i will just let them see i can let them to be shock to see me again and i will let them shut up without giving me any comment anymore.

Is kinda of thank them for giving me bad comment so i can be better, i will remember it.

And dad, you had thought me to be nice to people, but i will only be nice to thoes who is nice to me, i don't like to act in front of those people who i hate i don't want to wear a mask. They are wearing it so i will do it to them but i find they very stupid, they not tired i tired.

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Present from you.

Dad, i had been thiking what you had brought for me for the past 16 years, why not 18 years cause you had left us for two years so i minus off two years so is 16 years...

I remember you brought alot of things for me before when i was young, what i want you also buy hahas spoild kids..

I remember you brought for me bicycle and end up i give to it other people as i'm not cycling it anymore, second is i remember you brought me a handphone.

I know i had forget what you brought for me when i was young cause i don't seems to keep it and i ddi ask you buy mcdonald happy meal for me in order to get a hello kitty toy and i did ask you help me get a handphone you brought for me two time and i keeping it without losing it..

The handphone i stil using it although i'm not putting in my own sim card i only put in the old prepaid card hahas.

In case any phone spoild i still can use that phone, that was a good phone i drop before and it does not spoild at all.. Good phone don't need to bring it to repair somemore..

Dad, thanks for all the present and you had brought me alot of good food to eat..

I still miss the food you brought for me but most of the time the foodstall is no longer there or i can't find the place..

I miss all the things you brought for me and dad, thanks alot..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Missing you.

Yes, dad i miss you alot i feel like talking to you everyday and have a little fight with you i know i had been doing this very long before you leave..

When you and i had a small fight, you will buy things eg, food for me to eat and make me happy although i never apologise to you but you alot will buy things for me.. You even brought me a handphone too..

That was the present you brought for me its the last present, so i keep it till now without losing it and throw it away...

I don't have much present from you so i always keep things you buy for me..

Thanks dad,

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Trying and trying..

Dad, i had been trying to get over things like you are no longer around and learn to face the fact that getting something is not easy..

I had been learning how to get over things fast and not hurting my feeling but sometime i just can't do it.. I was wondering why?

Sometime i can sence that you are at home and i keep thinking i can see you, i think you know i scare so you won't let me see you although you are home.. 

I know you had been looking after us for alot of years and even now when you are in heaven you still look after us, But i don't know why you just don't want to come to my dream you don't want ask me anything? I got lots of things to tell you.. 

Dad, i forgot to tell you something that is happy father day.. I had not been telling you for alot of years i remember there is one year father's day mum give me money to get yo a small gift and you just laugh at me and say nothing.. I know you want to say thank you but you didn't.. 

I will try my best to get over everything that happen.. I'm a strong girl.. 

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Nothing left to say.

Dad, i have nothing to say cause i really don't know what i still can say what.

I feel that sometime i'm really tired.. You know when chinese new year i always very happy and i know i can get alot of hongbao(red packet) after you left i find that the hong bao i get is like lesser.. 

I find that i'm so tired that i have to face those realative who i don't like and i have to put on a smile face to show them that they are welcome to our house and i also welcome them. 

Yes! Everyone we know is welcome to our house and i know i should not give them face. 

I know i very naughty at sometime and i know when i hate one person i will hate the person forever or maybe i will forget the person.. See how short term memory i have and i know that i should not hate people or don't like people... 

I will change okays. But i really have nothing left to say when i face those people i hate.. Love to show off love to talk big, some more can say that i don't know how to use a computer as i had use it much more early then them okays. Anyhow say that i don't know how to use as if i'm that stupid. 

I keep my mouth shut and i know that i would scold them if i want but i didn't as i know you will not want to see me scolding people who is elder then me..

I will change i promise.. :)) 

Dad! last night 4D all not my number! tsk!!!! hahas

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Anything will do.

Dad, please let me win tonight 4D!! so i can buy handphone!

Now i will say anything cause i know i will not get things easily like last time when you were around.

I know i'm not rich and i don't need to act as i'm one cause i'm not rich at all, so people might thing i'm but NO. Who says i'm rich. Just because i can buy things i want then they say i'm rich..

But please i'm not, i can buy what i want is because my dad loves me so he buy for me, you think i'm those people who loves to buy things without looking out the price and without knowing any use of the things??

Dad, you see people thinks that your daughter, which is me very rich okays. So you must be rich too in order to make me rich.

FYI, i'm not born with sliver/gold spoon okays! I born in normal income family, yes i can get what ever i want cause i brought it when its having discount or my dad wins 4D.

So stop having the though that i'm rich!

Now to me anything is find, but don't ever show off to me what ever you have okays. so what if you had a latest bag, phone , laptop or shoes? I can get doulde the things you brought with that amount you spent on everything you show off to me.

Dad, now you know hwy i hate some people so much right. If there is a chance i wanted to disown them and i don't wish to know them at all.. Want to know who? Not my friend not my family member is those who i call/see them once a year during chinese new year..

Dad, i won't blame anyone and i'm happy i can be your daughter so please pray that i will win 4D tonoight!! I can say that i money face! hahas

Love Nana..
xoxoxo.

Whatever!

Dad, now i just wanna say whatever to all things. Cause i got nothing to say anymore.

Yes, i can't always get what i want as I'm not rich and things are not cheap at all..

All thing come with GST and SERVICE CHARGE.. so things become super expensive..

All i can can is whatever, keep on asking me things my reply will be whatever..

Do you know the phone you brought for me i still keep it? That's the last phone you brought for me i still keep it..

Well, i just don't want to think if i can get a new phone or not, get also like that never get also like that..

You know why i want to take new phone, firstly, jealous that people got new phone and keep showing off to me, secondly, i want to play games when i go and i can use that phone to go online or even take picture put in facebook, third, i want to show to those people who show off to me that i had a latest phone better then yours!.. I hate people who show off things to me, you know who i mentioning.. I hate them alot radio station, action, love to gossip and love to act-rich! :-p

So now all can say is whatever larrhs, got new phone or not i also like this..

And this is your naughty princess..

Love Nana.
xoxoxo..

So What!?

So what if  i'm the youngest at home? So what you all treat me like a little princess?


To me now i got ot ask you SO WHAT?


I can't get things i want everytime, yes my phone spoild i need a new want when i wanted to buy it i can't reason. The phone line is not under my name..


Always like that, you will buy for me things i want, if i want to change phone you will buy for me now to me all is SO WHAT?


I'm so sad that when i want to change phone nobody wanted to help me, mum say she will buy for me now the problem is the phone line also not her name how to buy??


Forget it. i will just throw my current phone out of the window now! STOP CALLING ME!


I hate myself, why can't i have the phone line if my own and why can't i'm rich? If i;m rich i can get what ever i want..


To me eveything is becoming SO WHAT!! yes this is a very good word to use! SO WHAT!!


So what i throw my phone away, so what i had money buy can't be use, so what i the youngest at home yet no one will buy things for me anymore!!!


SO WHAT!!??


P/S: Dad,  let me win TOTO today and 4D on wed can? So i can use the money to buy things i want!


Love Nana
xoxoxo

Tears i drop for you.

Dad, you know i had been crying after you left us. I know i become a cry baby little bit of things i will start to tear..

I had been crying when i mention about you or people asked me about you, i will tell them i'm find i'm okays and my eye is full of tears. And no one dare to ask me again, they know i'm sad and i still trying to get over.

It happen to fast and i was too shock although i already know it would happen but i keep on praying it won't happen but it still happen..

I seen how you leave us, i was just beside you. I know you don't bare to leave us but you had no choice maybe this is the way your body will feel much more better. No more medicine for you no more doctor for you all you had is healthy body. In heaven you will not fall ill right? As i know that place is a painless and happy place..

Tears keep on dropping in the dark when no one seens it and sometime i will cry without a reason, very weird i will just cry, watch those drama cry, read novel cry, read comic cry, watch television cry.  NO REASON for it.. :((

I want to stop tearing but no matter how hard i try the tears will roll down, no matter what i will keep trying i will be strong. I know you want to tell me this.. I'm a strong girl who can control from not tearing.

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Getting over but not yet..

Yes, i'm getting over without you around and its very different. I use to hear you asking me you come back already when i got home from school or outside.

I know i very naught always make you angry and i always nag at you when you doing things, I like old woman hahas nag nag nag non-stop. Till now i no one to nag anymore..

I really miss those day when you are around asking me question over and over again till i don't want to answer you and you start scolding me..

I wanna get use the day, the year without you. I keep on trying till now i finally overcome and realise you are not around anymore. I want you to come to my dream and talk to me is it that hard?

Getting over is not a easy job for me, i will keep on trying till i get over it..

Sometime  i can feel that you are around but you will not make any noise cause you know i scare, and you also don't wish to scare me..

Dad, i will keep on get over everything soon, i know you are in heaven and want me to stay happy! :))

Love Nana.
xoxoxo.

If i could turn back time.

Sometime with my silly mind i thinking of turning back time..

Why i want to turn back time, cause i want to spend more time with you and i want to undo things which happen too unhappy for me or to others.. Will, this is not the only thing that i wanted to turn back time..

Maybe i scare to move forward or maybe i scare i would forget you and things related to you. Slowly oneday i will forget how you sound like or maybe how you look like.. I really miss you..

If there is a change to turn back time, i want to go back to the time when i was young again, proberly back to primary 4 hahas. Start from there study hard and also slim down from that time, well that's not the point i want of couse slim down everyone also wish they can turn back time to stop themselve from eatting too much so they won't be fat by now lols.. The main point is i want to spend more time with you not back to the younger age if can go back to baby time also can but thats weird start a new life again from baby..

If can go back to primanry 4 will do, cause it would be easy for me. Study again then get good result will get a chance to see you often cause i always at home..

I know this won't happen, i know i can't turn back time.. But i just want to remember all things you done for me and i want to keep in it in my heart.. No matter what i won't forget i know i will but i will try not to forget.

Love Nana
xoxoxo.

My small little dream II

Dad, i use to dream that i will live in big house or you had a company of your own..

Silly right! If you do have those things then i think you will be super busy and if you do have a company, if it does have we will be working in the company and we are our own boss.

We can work in our company and go work at the time we like. Unlike now, wok for others then sometime will get scolding from the BOSS! If we are our own boss we won't get scolding.. Happy go work not happy stay home, hahas i think too much..

I know this won't happen as it was just my dream, but if it do happen i feel much more happy..

I know you had been working hard outside when you were around and i know you are tired and i never say anything.. You use to bring me go every place when you are free and try to spend time together with us..

Thank you dad, Thanks for everything you give us.

I know you can see us in heaven. I want you to stay happy! :))

Love Nana.
xoxoxo..

My small little dream.

Dad, you told me something once and i remember but i know it will not realize.. But i believe one day will if i won toto first prize..

When i was young, you brought me to cut ny hair  as you need to cut your hair too, so i tag along.. After that when we are about to go home i told you i want to eat durian and you brought for me and you forget to go and buy 4D, you will always buy if you remember, but that day you forget and our house unit number was the first prize when the 4D result was out.. If that day you brought it we will be staying in a bigger house eg. 5 room flat, 4 room flat but is upstairs and down stairs or those house which is three storey.

I dream before if we leave in those big house, when Chinese new year all our relatives come they will have space to seat.. Now we live in 4 room flat i know is big enough, but when come to Chinese new year the space in our house in not enough. hahas as we got alot of relative as you and mum comes from big family and i  got alot of cousin when they come our house is like full up with people and is like almost not enough space to move around.. 

If we stay in a three storey house, i want the bedroom at third floor and i want my own bathroom so i don't need to fight for bathroom if i need to use in urgently.. But i know one thing is we got bigger house more house to be done, so there is good and bad. Good is more space more easy to move about during chinese new year, more rooms and Bad is more house work to be done.. 

I can turn back time to the time where by we went to out and cut hair after that ask you buy 4D insted of durian. I know i love to eat but now i don't like to eat durian anymore i find it very smelly although is nice but i still don't eat much.. But i know if that time you had buy 4D you also won't spent all the money to buy a house you will save up right.. 

If there is oneday, i can earn alot of money i will buy a two storey HDB flat and stay. that's the only wish i want now, I went to cousin house and i love her house cause her house is two storey HBD flat and i love the house design it was nice. cause it had been renovated before so it look dame nice.. If i can buy that kind of house i will also renovated it till dame nice..

Well, dad this is my small little dream that i had keep in my heart.. :))

Love Nana..
xoxoxo

This is me.

Dad, thanks for everything that you tough me before.. I really appreciation!! :))


Things you taught me i never forget, and i know i didn't show it to others as they are not show me any respect so don't blame me for not respecting them too..


This is me, your daughter, your willfulness princess daughter. hahas. I might be naught and i can be good whenever i want to be..


Sometime I'm thinking why some people so brainless. Why can't they just treat people good so that they will treat them the same way. I admit i will do that when people treat me badly. I also wanted to treat them good but as i seen how they treat me i just do the same lorrhs. REFLECTION!


I know i need to change but it doesn't mean i need to put on a mask when i face people i hate right, i really feel like giving them one slap whenever i seen them doing things that is so unreasonable, but i know i can't as they are older then me i must respect them! But the problem is they don't know how to respect me i respect them also point less.


Dad, you know what i mean right. You are in heaven you can see it yourself when you are still around you also got seen it yourself before i didn't say anything wrong okays. yes i will hate the people till i forget their name but not their idiot face. Will they really look so idiot when they do/say things i hate, they might think this way, yes i say/do this purposely so that i will get angry or mad. I really did and they will say yes,i finally make her angry and see how selfish or how stingy I'm..

What's wrong being selfish and stingy? Don't tell me they are not that selfish and stingy lorrhs, they just put on a mask every time when they are outside to show people they are so generous. Yarrhs. GENEROUS, in order to show people only..

Well. dad This is me, your daughter, your willfulness princess daughter.
Like i say i will change to be good to people. :))

Love Nana.
xoxoxo.

Never be replace.

You will never be replace by anyone in my heart, you taught me lot's of things like how to be nice to people how to be a good girl and also how to do my homework if i don't know..

I remember once i ask you how to do my maths homework as i don't know how to do it, then after that i never ask anymore as you are not at home due to work..

When i was young you taught me so much things and you borough me to lot's of places and till now when i go those place it will remind me that i had been here before when i was young. hahas.

Although i forget lot's of things that happen when i was you because i had grown up and the memory of the childhood time has been past for me and i really forgotten ..

I might forget things that happen when i was young, i did tough of turning back the time to see everything again maybe i can change into a better person and have a good personality, and i can spend more time with you unlike now wanted to spend time with you also can't..

Sometime i had been thinking of can i turn back time and can i change everything? But the answer is i can't turn back time i only can look forward, turn back time and having time machine will only happen in movie and if there is one time machine in real life what will i do? I will go back to the time when i was young start all over again just to spend time with you, and i know if i get a chance to start all over again i might be sad again as i will go through everything again.. If i can go back and change everything all over again it might be things i want and everyone that i know now will be different..

I know this is what i have to gone through as time is call life-cycle to all humans and animal.. I don't wan tot be sad again i want to stay happy and i know will be find in heaven.. Taking care of us, and when i miss you i will look up to the sky to see the bright star and that will be you telling me to stay strong and face the upcoming problem! :))

Love Nana
xoxoxo.

I'm A Spoilt Kid!

To other who don't know me thinks I'm a very good girl, helpful girl.. actually I'm not. I only give them those though as i acting in front of them..

To those who know me well,  yes I'm a girl who like to throw temper, a nasty girl and like to scold people when i ask the person to help me do things yet do wrong when i already told he/she how to do it..

I'm a person who is really impatient, no patient person!

Yes, I'm such a person.

I'm spoilt girl.. I the youngest at home so i can be like this..

I wanna change and I'm changing to a perfect girl yet i failed, i just want to change why so hard just because I'm spoilt and might think that everything is right!

To you dad, you always see me behaving like this, you scold me i don't care i think that you are singing mum scold me i also think she is singing, but third sis scold me i don't dare to do it. Dad, you see I'm so naught.

Dad i really want to change, i want to control my temper, i don't wish to scold people.. I feel so bad after scolding them i just don't know how to apologise to them as i think no big deal i already scold you why must i apologise? The person who needs to apologise is you. This is how i always think.

I just want to change, i no longer a little kids anymore i can decided what i want and know what is right or wrong, but sometime i really behave like kids..

I feel so angry when people say either our family member or myself i feel like slapping them and ask them why they so kpo this is non of their business, I find them very irritating, love to gossip around when they heard something, i really want to have a remote control so i can shut them up so that they can't spread so much gossip or maybe i can deleted their memory of those gossip.

I know this won't happen, I know its time for me to change, Learn to control my temper and learn to be nice to people.. Well is their mouth they can say what every they like. i can't bother, but when i think back i feel like slapping them 100 time without failed!

Dad, i will change myself into a good girl, i can't promise i will change over a night but slowly... I will learn from mistake too.. I Will try! :))  

Love Nana.
xoxoxo

I will not forget.

Dad you taught me lots of things and i always show you in the other way, you teach me to be good i always be bad hahas. You will get angry but you always forget it by end of the day.

Sometime, i might think that I'm always right in doing things without listening to you, but i always know that you telling me this and that because you want me to learn but i will make mistake and you will just let me learn from mistake..

I really going to forget how you look, your voice and everything you done for me. I just want to remember it like so hard, I want you to enter to my dream more hard! Why? I almost forget how you look like i will think of how you look like but the memory of you is getting blur is like i might forget everything, the person i had seen for 15 years the image in getting blur. The voice of you that always asked me to wake up to help you do thing the way you tell me jokes,scold me and the voice you teach me magic trick is getting blur also..

I really scare i might forget how you look like and how your voice is like, i know its been two years i might forget but its scary as i forget it so fast.. 

Every time i go out i saw people wear the shirt which is similar to you i will keep looking at it, i remember that two years ago you pass away during my march school holiday when i go back to school after that holiday i saw a uncle wear a similar as you and he is taking the umbrella  which is similar to the want we had walking up to the stairs that we use to walk home before.. His background was like you i almost call him dad but i know its not you, i went to school and never say a single words when my friend ask me what happen.

What you trying to tell me? Sometime i will see people who look similar as you, are yoy trying to tell you that you are in heaven looking after at me all time asking me not to worry about you as you are super find now? If that is then why not you tell me in my dream i just want to talk to you and heard from you that you are find thats all..

Dad remember this we miss you!

Love Nana
xoxoxo

The memory of you II

I remember i learn to bake cookies from a friend she tough me how to bake the cookies over the phone and i was learning while you were out..

I was baking and mum was home and she ask what am i doing i say bake cookies but i like make a mess in the kitchen, when you were home you saw the cookie and i didn't ask you if you want to eat or not i just left it on the table to continue my things..

I bake a few time and i ask you try it to see if its nice or not, you took it and eat and say its nice and ask me bake more and my answer to you is okay. One day, you took the cookie to your friend without telling me and when you are home you told me that you took some cookie to your friend and then you told me that your friend say that cookie was nice and after that you ask me to bake more during Chinese new year.

So Chinese new year i bake those cookies and i find that you are the want eating more than others did and you told those relatives who come to our house to eat the cookie i made. I know that they just give face and eat and say yes its nice.. Lols. Enough for that i knew cause there is alot of things that we brought for Chinese new year which is much more nicer!

I remember the last time i bake cookies i throw it all away as i got no mood to make it and it taste so horrible i burn the cookie as i was make the rest and the worst part, you still eat it i feel so bad and i throw all away as its really burn and i don't want to see it anymore. Mum say i no mood make what also taste horrible, so yes it true she's not lying to me, that's how i burn the cookie...

It been two year and i never bake any cookie, as i know no one will eat it if i bake. So i never bake it anymore, not because of no want eating it is because i no time and i don't went to waste the flour,sugar,butter and time..

I wish i could back some cookies and bring it along when i visit you, yes to the tample to visit you i wish could bring it along but i didn't bake it for such a long time i scare i screw up again. But i mad something which i think its nice that was Potato Salad, its easy to make and i like to eat wanting to let you try when i go visit you someday in tample, eat it tell me if its nice in my dream okay..

P/S: Will try to bake cookies again i promise! :))

Love Nana..
xoxoxo

The memory of you.

The memory of you seems like going away, i almost can't remember the way you use to call me and the way you use to scold me..

I almost forget the way you look, i always want to remember all the things you done for me when you are around, today i remember tomorrow i will forget the more i want to rememeber the more i forget..

I hate this feeling i just want to keep the memory of you but i will forget it very soon. Dad i really miss you, i miss everything you done for me..

I will try my best to remember all things you done for me and i will always lock it in my heart and i will not forget your look..

Love Nana..
xoxoxo