Trying and trying..

Dad, i had been trying to get over things like you are no longer around and learn to face the fact that getting something is not easy..

I had been learning how to get over things fast and not hurting my feeling but sometime i just can't do it.. I was wondering why?

Sometime i can sence that you are at home and i keep thinking i can see you, i think you know i scare so you won't let me see you although you are home.. 

I know you had been looking after us for alot of years and even now when you are in heaven you still look after us, But i don't know why you just don't want to come to my dream you don't want ask me anything? I got lots of things to tell you.. 

Dad, i forgot to tell you something that is happy father day.. I had not been telling you for alot of years i remember there is one year father's day mum give me money to get yo a small gift and you just laugh at me and say nothing.. I know you want to say thank you but you didn't.. 

I will try my best to get over everything that happen.. I'm a strong girl.. 

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.