Yes! i dream of you today.

Dad, you finally come to my dream, but i didn't ask you anything..

The only thing you told me is i wanna eat anything or not and you ask me eat Maggie mee and you told me you will cook for me..

Weird, you will never cook Maggie mee for me to eat, since when you learn it?

But at least i had dream of you, can you come to my dream more often?

I got so many things to tell you..

Dad, i really miss you...

Please come to my dream again!!

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Will I see you?

Dad, i always ask myself this question,

Will i get to see you when i go to heaven, will you come and pick me when my time is up?

I had been thinking, will you?

I wanted to go with you, to your house in heaven and stay with you when my time is up.. I want you to bring me around the world..

I know the time is not up but we will hae to go through this so when my time up please come and pick me i don't want others to come and pick me...

I know i'm very silly to say this now but no matter what we had to know this day will come, we must be prepare..

So now i just wanna to say if my time is up, remember to come and pick me up!

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

P/S:  I"m just saying IF one day i'm no longer around!! I STILL ALIVE! :))

Two year without you

Its been two year plus without you at home.

I start to think of you were overseas working and very busy.

I know that you will not come back anymore.

But i stil hope that you will come to my dream.

I wonder where you have been this two year, how are you?

Have you seen grandma & grandpa?

Are you enjoying yourself in heaven??

I hope you are find

If can please let me dream of you..

I miss you.

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

Celebration without you.

Dad, remember last time you love to buy lantern for me to play?

Well not all time, but when you are free you will bring me out to see the light decoration at Chinatown.

You will go buy your favorite moon cake and on lunar 8/15 you will eat the moon cake and drink a cup of tea..

I really miss the time you bring us out to orchard road to see the light decoration on CNY, Christmas and moon cake festival..

I really miss the place you bring me go before , you will drive and i don;t take mrt or bus go save my trip money, but when you are no longer around i had not been to those place for long time to see the light decoration..

I will remember all the place you brought me go before..

I will not forget...

I promoise..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

I remember..

Dad, i remember something which i really don't know if it really happen to me..

I remember that time you just pass away, and i was holding on to your phone in order to contact your friend so i call one by one and inform then..

I can't remember when is it, morning 7am i wanted to call one of your friend but i call her at 7 plus but at night when she come she asked me if i had call her earlier on or not i say not its just 5 mins before i call her and she already received a call from your phone.

She told me that no one was talking and she keep calling your name to ask was that you...But she told me no one reply, she wasn't aware that you are no longer around so when i told her at the next call then she found out you already pass away.. so that night when she came she show me her phone and it show that her phone rang before i call her, she told me maybe you were looking for her and want to talk to her as you will call her and ask how is or is she busy when you are free...

Few days later, i was sleeping in my room alone then i remember i kick my pillow on the floor and i never pick it up i was to scare so i cover myself up with the blanket. In morning i heard mum voice in my room then i open up my eyes and i saw the pillow was on my bed and my blanket was no longer the want i use at night.

The blanket i use at night was blue, i did have one pink blanket on my bed i never use it i just put it aside, so when i was awake, the moment i ask my mum was, is that pillow on the floor when you were in? she replied no. then i say ok never mind. again i saw my blanket from blue become pink more shocking...

I was wondering i change the blanket myself? But i didn't move at all i don't even wake up to go washroom or what how can i change my blanket i don't sleepwalk as well..

So i told my mum about it and my aunt then i got the answer is, dad, you are the one who pick up my pillow and you are the want who change my blanket..

I wasn't scare at the moment i was shock and i really don't know you help me change my blanket..

I know you are home to visit us that day.. Dad, thank you...

I miss you alot..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.

Thing that remind me of you.

Dad, every time i saw the things that belong to you i will start thinking of you..

Even when i went out i saw someone back ground i also thought is you as the person had a similar back ground as you..

When i went to the room that you use to sleep i had be thinking that if you are around you will still sleeping in the room and i still can see you everyday.. But now i only see a empty room and some of your belonging

Mum, told me that we have to keep some of your belonging because next year when your third year anniversary we have to burn all your belonging to you, i hope you will received it..

And i remember when you pass away, they call us to keep the shirt you wore when you are around so we do keep the shirts that you wear..

I really miss the time you brought me out and you love to wake me up to eat the food you brought at night and morning..

Sorry dad, cause sometime i will give you cold shoulder as i don't want to eat anything at night as i wanna sleep due to i'm tired.. But sometime i will still wake up to eat..

You love to call home to ask me if i wanna eat anything and i will use to say yes and sometime no.. hahas. I love the food you brought for me and i will always remember..

Dad, i hope that you are find in heaven..

I will still remember how you look and how you sound like. Although i will be forgetting it soon..

Love Nana,
xoxoxo

There will not be any thing from you anymore

Yes, i will get nothing from you anymore.

I face the fact you are no longer alive and giving things i want anymore..

Dad, i want to thank you for giving me all things i had when i was young and i know that i'm a spoild kid who want this and that..

I know you had been giving me things in the limite you can and i always want more of it without using my brain to think its cheap or expensive..

There will not be any thing from you anymore, these two year i'm really find and i had keep those things you give me before so that means alot to me already!

Thank you dad,

Love Nana,
xoxoxo.